I’ve been busy with a very important creation this past year, leaving my blog and website high and dry, my alphabet dangling at the letter “S” and my ark to slowly sink….
As I write this, I’m bleary eyed, half hallucinatory from severe sleep deprivation, with one ear alert to the possible sounds of crying in the next room.
Yup, I am officially a mom. Whoo hoo!
I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl at the end of March. An all natural birth! Over 34 hours of labour and no pain meds whatsoever. The last 6 1/2 hours took place at the new Toronto Birth Centre, with the help of my wonderful midwives. I am madly, madly in love…with my husband and this new bundle of giggles, farts and baby babbles. Marin Kaatje Frolic. My little vegan wonder who is growing fatter and rosier-cheeked every day, while I wither and get sucked dry from my, thankfully, overly abundant breasts.
I suppose one could say that I was already more or less “broken in” by being a step mom to my husband’s three other kids, who are now 6, 10 and 12 (!!!). I love them too. But, I guess, nothing really prepares you for having one of your very own. I am extremely grateful to the universe for this opportunity to be a real mom. Our family is complete.
We also got married a month before Marin’s birth, to make everything official. I was the tall, fat and wide bride with the bulging belly in the white dress and winter mukluks ( it was a snow storm that day ). I even went as far as to change my last name to unify our not-so-little family! Hello. I’d like to introduce myself. I’m now Anouk Frolic! We’re a happy, hoppy, skippy bunch.
It’s been a busy few months. I don’t expect it to get any easier for – oh – let’s say maybe, the next 20 years!?!?
I felt my blog site pulling me recently…taunting me, really. Daring me to enter its realm and say a few words. Today, after one of my most sleep deprived nights, I answered the call. ha! Why the hell not? I think it was this book launch I attended last night that planted the seed that I should write. A book launch that took place at Marin’s bedtime, I might add (thus the sleepless night and horrific day that ensued). Note to self: YOU DO NOT HAVE A LIFE ANYMORE! What were you thinking taking a baby to a book launch across town… AT HER BEDTIME!?!
The event was for a wonderful woman by the name of Nikki Fotheringham, who runs the website Green Moxie . Nikki promoted my game and puzzles last Christmas and I am very grateful for her support and enthusiasm.
My life has been consumed as of late with baby and family. There has (had?) been no space left for creativity or work. But, one has to start somewhere. The itch is starting to become too noticeable to ignore. I am hopeful that creativity will once again blast through me to finish the things I’ve started and for future projects to be realized. At the very least, I need to finish my alphabet! The letter S….hmmmm, what will it be? Sleep? Slumber? Snore? Snooze? ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.
I’ll have to get back to you on that one.